Amara describes several months of increasingly elaborate self-education, undertaken carefully and in good faith, which produced a set of rules she followed strictly and could not evaluate.

It was all sourced. It was also assembled by someone with no way of telling which parts were about people like me.

She asked directly whether a referral was available and was told it was. Her account of that appointment is mostly about subtraction: a majority of what she had adopted was set aside, and what remained was shorter and specific to her circumstances.